On Your Arm

I can't lie that the last few days have been rough on me. With my ear pain, Erynn cutting her hair (yeah, will have to post pics of this up soon), and just a general feeling of being down, it has been hard to stay positive and not let my frustration take over. I've shed a few tears, I've turned to my family for support, and was so grateful last night for my family.

After a hard day for me yesterday, Lucas came home from a long day of teaching at the high school and college, once the kiddos were in bed, we went for a drive, just the two of us. He could tell that I was going through a lot that day and it was just what I needed, like he was reading my mind. I instantly felt better. He didn't even really say anything, it was just having him right there next to me that made all the difference. It made me think of this amazing man and all that he has given and done for me over the years. I am so grateful for my husband, for the support he gives me, and the comfort of just having him by my side. Don't know what I'd do without you babe!

I hear this song and think of how perfect it is for us, had to share the lyrics, I could never put it all into words what I feel better than this:

On Your Arm
You always felt like home
You knew my favorite song
And I love the way you say my name
I love just about everything

Wake up to your morning face
Love you a little bit more everyday
Love the way you walk into the room
It's just the little things

Cause on your arm I could fall asleep
And on your arm it's the best of me
And on your arm I go anywhere
Cause I know that you'll be there
Counting a million ways to stay
On your arm

I can't believe you belong to me
I guess I must have done something right
How did we get here and where did we start?
You follow my heart

And on your arm I could fall asleep
And on your arm it's the best of me
And on your arm I go anywhere
Cause I know that you'll be there
Counting a million ways to stay
On your arm

Oh my love could you take me?
Oh my love just take me on your arm
On your arm

Cause on your arm I could fall asleep
And on your arm it's the best of me
And on your arm I go anywhere
Cause I know that you'll be there
Counting a million ways to stay
On your arm
On your arm
On your arm

Stress

Well to say that I have been stressed lately is an understatement. I know that I am stressed, I feel that I am stressed, and my family is always telling me I am stressed. Well now it seems so is my jaw. Yesterday I finally got into see the ENT where he diagnosed me with TMJ. I have always heard of this, but never would have guessed this was what was causing all my "ear" pain. Most people with TMJ hear a clicking or popping sound when they open their mouth, or they get something called "locked jaw" where it makes it difficult to open their mouths wide, well I don't have either of these problems. I have the pain, pain that is never ending, both dull and aching that seems to get worse as my day goes on. Working nights, that can feel never ending. So here I am, don't feel like I am much closer to solving my issues, but have decided I need to spend a little more time on me, so I am walking again with my good bud Amber! It was so nice to have not only the exercise, but that girl time, can't wait!

Hoping my lifestyle changes will ultimately help with my physical ales. Wish me luck!

Silly Little Erynn

I was just sitting here thinking that my baby will be 3 in a couple of months! This is so scary to me, where did the time go? Erynn has grown so much over the past year, she is so much fun, a challenge, and the sweetest little thing!! She is so funny and is always trying to make us laugh. She loves her sisters so much, always calls Andie "my Andie" and she loves to say her name "Erynn Johnson".

Just this morning, Lucas and I are lying in bed, we hear a knock, knock, knock on our door. I asked, who is it...this sweet little voice says "Erynn Johnson". Precious.

We have had some crazy rain here in AZ lately. With all the rain has come not only a TON of weeds, but lots and lots of frogs! My girls love frogs. Lucas has made it a tradition to go "frog hunting" in the summertime. So after a good rain, he'll pack up the girls, grab a large cooler and go around Quail Ridge to find all the frogs they possibly can. What do they do with all these frogs, well they let them go in a canal near our house, this way, they don't get ran over on the roads. Well, Erynn doesn't like to call frogs "frogs". No she calls them "Birdits". Why...because they ribbit. It is so cute to hear her calling out for birdits all the time. Well, lately there has been a "birdit" that like to frequent outside our house. He is there almost every evening before the girls go to bed. Erynn likes to go out and find him, pet him and play with his belly and feet. She makes sure to hold him over the ground so he can "pee" first, then she hugs on him for a few minutes. She has kissed him a few times, hope this means someday she will find her prince charming! ;) Lucas is convinced that this frog loves Erynn, he didn't even pee on her tonight!

This is the kind of little girl Erynn is. To see her sweet little face and know that she doesn't know of any bad in the world. She accepts almost everyone. She is always the first person to thank us for her dinner every night and she prays that her and her sister "sweep" good every night. We have had our rough times with her, she has been sick a lot and we still don't know what her future will be like, but I wouldn't trade her for anything in the world. I pray that she will continue to stay healthy and outgrow her reflux, I know that she is one tough cookie. We all love Erynn so much and couldn't imagine our world without her!



Thank you Heavenly Father for teaching me what it is like to stuggle for my children, to grow from my children, and teach me that I would do anything for my daughters!

Breaking Dawn Part 1

The long awaited, highly anticipated trailer for Breaking Dawn!! I remember years ago, sitting in my apartment in Flagstaff, watching the news. They had a segment on up and coming AZ authors. They discussed a little book called Twilight. I was so excited, I love love love Vampire anything! So I went to Barns and Nobles and bought one of the first copies in print. A few months later when New Moon came out, I couldn't find the book anywhere, not because they sold out, but because few places carried the young adult novel. I remember feeling silly buying the book because here I was a twenty something mother buying a book for teens. Little did I know it would become the phenomenon that it did!! I know this sounds super silly, but I seriously love this series and am so sad that it is over. I keep praying that Stephenie Meyer will decide to continue the series so we now what happens to Jacob (hint, hint)! So I am putting this close, were I can always pull up the trailer!!

9/11 Ten Years Later

I remember that morning...Andie was almost 7-months-old. I was sitting in my little apartment in Thatcher feeding her, rocking her in my living room, watching the news. At that time they were showing the footage of the 1st Trade Center attack. I remember thinking how crazy it was that this was happening and what a terrible accident...then the 2nd tower was hit and my disbelief turned to fear. How could this be happening? Those poor families. What was going on? I went in and woke up Lucas and explained that the towers of the WTC had been hit by planes. They were live at this time, just reporting as news came in about the attack on the Pentagon and the 4th plane that went down in Pennsylvania. There was talk on the radio about possible attacks on air force bases around the US including Luke Air Force Base in Phoenix. We watched as the towers collapsed to the ground and our hope that the survivors had made it to safety diminished.

The last 10 years have been a long and tough journey for the US. I don't have family in NY, I don't currently have family in the military, I have never lost a family member to such a tragedy, but I pray for those that do and have. I love my country and pray for all US Citizens today. I am proud to be an American and I am proud to be raising my daughters in this country. I will hold my children a little closer to me and remind them to be grateful for all they have. I am so grateful for all of our troops that have served and those that have lost their lives for my country. I am grateful for all the service men and women that did all they could to help those injured on this day 10 years ago. I pray for all the families that have been affected by the tragedy of 9/11 and to all that do what they can to help us remember what being an American means.

*GOD BLESS THE USA*

Jane Erye 2011

Just watched the new version of this movie and it is awesome!! Chemistry...check! A Mr. Rochester worth swooning over...check! Brooding stares...check! Must watch!

Johnson Family Expanding...

No, I am not having another baby...still recovering after Erynn, haha! We just found out that my sister-in-law Lisa and her wonderful husband are having another baby!! I am so happy for them. Lisa and G and such awesome people and they have the most adorable little girl...they are thinking this one is a boy. Now they will have a little Lisa and a little G.

This makes me think about my girlies and how big they are getting. Time flies and I can only hope that I am teaching them all they need to know, loving them as much as is humanly possible, and letting them know that NO ONE in this world is their bigger fan than me!!

It also makes me grateful to have an awesome mother, sisters, sisters-in-law and mother-in-law that I can laugh and share the tials of motherhood with. To think that I have all these amazing women in my life that help support, inspire, and motivate me to be a better person is the best!

Here's to growing families and the blessings that babies are!